You've heard about them, the Mr. Right, Mrs. Right, Prince Charming, etc. but do you know that these people actually exist and there are times we get them and discard them like yesterday's garbage? How many times have you had someone who was pushing to see you do better, took the time to attend to your every need, considered you above there own well being, and the list goes on and yet still all you could think of was how nagging this person was and when they would leave? What about the many times you had that one person who would wait on you hand and foot despite all that you have done to them and you reward them with arrogance and stress? The truth of the matter is that at some point in time we are all guilty of such actions and whether you accept it or not, it's your fault that you're unhappy! Most people will agree that men more than women are guilty of such behaviour with the majority of victims being women.
To the men of the world, it's no secret that we all have varying needs and wants from women and there are times we are guilty of being as indecisive about love as we accuse the women we meet of doing. A good woman is defined differently by each man so I can't say there's any one kind of good woman, however, at a point in time in life we do meet that woman who meets our criteria and then we mess up by cheating, abusing, ignoring, contradicting and destroying them. If that isn't bad enough, we do them worst by imposing our "macho" will on them and when they leave we're most upset and quickest to point the finger of blame at them. That very finger that we point has a thumb that's pointing right back at us and it's nothing further from the truth. Every man would like to have that perfect body woman who does everything that we would like them to do to and for us, but just like us women come in all shapes and sizes and should be appreciated as they are. There's no point in complaining of how ridiculously petty women are and how much they gossip because you know what, men gossip just as bad and sometimes worst. You really think those nights out with the boys talking about who does what and who's with who isn't gossiping? Get real and get a life because that's exactly what it is! So there's more proof that you're just as bad as the women you complain about and in some cases worst! So now that you know you're a no good, lying, cheating, gossiping sissy, do yourself a favour and treat those women with respect and dignity, it'll save you a lot of stress in the long run.
Don't you ladies think that you're escaping this, because as bad as men can be, honestly speaking I've witnessed women do far worst and stoop far lower. Dear women of this earth, tell me why would you think that you have to sell your bodies, deceive men, destroy young ones, seduce other women, destroy the homes of other women, etc just to get the attention of a man? It's saddening to see what the modern woman has become and on this International Women's Day, it's really shameful to see that after all the hype and talk about women on the move and the evolution of society, we've graduated to the very same level we were eons ago in the age of Sodom and Gomorrah. You're no better than the men whom you publicly denounced as unjust and prejudiced, no smarter than the men you labelled dummies and incompetent, no more progressive than the men you called archaic and obsolete. Most women especially feminist will deny these facts and label them as derogatory accusations but think about it, the very existence of feminists lends to my points. Feminists are women who exists for the soul purpose of promoting and endorsing the power of women, men have clubs, circles, lodges, etc that do the exact same thing. Just as with the paragraph about men, women you too are very guilty of meeting the perfect match for you, only for you to screw it up over some insanely frivolous reasons. More than men, you're superficial and very materialistic in most cases, your focus is almost always on what you can get versus what you can give. If that sounds familiar it's because you accuse men of doing. There's no point to complaining of the evil that men do and then turn around and do the exact same thing! That's not even an eye for an eye, that's stupidity to the highest. You complain that the perfect man doesn't exist and that is true because what makes a perfect man is different to every woman, but what happens when you do meet that man who meets your criteria and you discard him for the chase of another whom you think is the man of your dreams? That's right once again you're thinking like a man and don't even know it, look back in your life on how many of those "friends" who would give anything to be with you, the "friends" who saw you through good and bad and ensured that you always came first but were cast aside for reasons that you alone can justify. Can't find a perfect man after that? Well that was because you had him and let him leave so tough, you're still thinking like a man just in case you're not keeping track. So you don't understand men, here's a clue men don't understand you either so if nobody speaks then there's no understanding. Communication isn't a man problem only, it's a people problem and truth be told women are the majority of the guilty parties with that. So now that you know you're a lying, poor communicating, stubborn, jackass do yourself a favour and treat the men you meet with respect and dignity. Don't try to destroy them or abuse them and they won't have reason to do you the same.
When it comes to men versus women, there's no lesser of the two evils, there's no rock and hard place, there's only one species of human race that needs to remember who created us and why.
Better than that people
R2
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Men vs Women
A long standing argument between the genders, is which gender is the simpler of the two to be. I asked a woman recently if she were given the opportunity to be a man if she would take it and why. She immediately said she would jump at such a chance, but only to see what men really think of women's feelings, what a man really wants from a woman and why men find it so difficult to understand what women really want.
Let's begin with the first question, what men really think of women's feelings, this is a slightly varied topic depending on the stage of the man so let's deal with the general information. Most men agree that women are largely fluctuate about their emotions. As far as men go women are as emotionally stable as a pirogue in the middle of the Bering Strait. Ladies as a man I must admit I also subscribe to that thinking because quite frankly there's no making up your mind. There's no sound decision over what mood you're in for as little as 2 minutes let alone an entire half hour! I have lots of female friends and it's the same issue with all of them, mood changes are as often as the shoes they supposedly "have to have." If a woman were to be a man for even a day, this would be the first most obvious thing she would see in other women what men see everyday. Ladies while we understand that you're emotional beings, that doesn't mean that you have full license, carte blanche to continually change your moods for the slightest adjustment in the day! The real stress for men is that most of the so called stressors are petty minded issues like "what some other chic said about you that you heard from a friend" or "what the woman from down the street was wearing that looked like one you have home." I have not met the man who can make sense over why women change moods more than underwear, so all we can do is play on them to our advantage as much as possible. It's far easier to learn to manipulate of a woman's emotions than attempt to comprehend the insane complexities how they work.
Let's begin with the first question, what men really think of women's feelings, this is a slightly varied topic depending on the stage of the man so let's deal with the general information. Most men agree that women are largely fluctuate about their emotions. As far as men go women are as emotionally stable as a pirogue in the middle of the Bering Strait. Ladies as a man I must admit I also subscribe to that thinking because quite frankly there's no making up your mind. There's no sound decision over what mood you're in for as little as 2 minutes let alone an entire half hour! I have lots of female friends and it's the same issue with all of them, mood changes are as often as the shoes they supposedly "have to have." If a woman were to be a man for even a day, this would be the first most obvious thing she would see in other women what men see everyday. Ladies while we understand that you're emotional beings, that doesn't mean that you have full license, carte blanche to continually change your moods for the slightest adjustment in the day! The real stress for men is that most of the so called stressors are petty minded issues like "what some other chic said about you that you heard from a friend" or "what the woman from down the street was wearing that looked like one you have home." I have not met the man who can make sense over why women change moods more than underwear, so all we can do is play on them to our advantage as much as possible. It's far easier to learn to manipulate of a woman's emotions than attempt to comprehend the insane complexities how they work.
Now onto question 2, what a man really wants from a woman. Sadly this varies from man to man and is heavily dependent on the stage of life the man is at. Younger men are usually much more daring and unwilling to settle, they're hungry for new experiences and unless raised in a very strict traditional home where such cravings are forbidden by the elders. Younger men who crave such adventures are usually between the ages of 17 to 30, but something interesting happens at about the age of 23 and onwards, men start getting hintings of settling down with families. These hints all depend on the amount the man has experienced by that age and how much more he wants to experience. If women would take the time to find out about these experiences then that would give them a very clear indicator as to what that particular man wants from a woman. Now in addition to those experiences a woman must consider the financial standing of a man, the more the man has accomplished the more he wants to settle generally speaking. Settled men are easier to get along with as they're less demanding and much more focused on the woman than on their careers or attaining possessions. These men are however, much neater and much more mature in their thinking so a girl who parties alot is not inclined to tickle the fancy of such a man. There's also the education factor to consider, higher educated young men actually take longer to settle than men who are less formally educated but are less likely to commit infidelity in a relationship based on the level of their experiences.
As for the last question why men can't understand what women really want, well that stems from the woman not giving the impression that she knows what she really wants. Mixed signals and messages are a seeming must in order to be a woman. Men receive a myriad of messages from women on just a single topic and all at once so it's almost impossible to make sense of what the woman really wants. Most men do not even bother taking the time to understand these messages and as such come across as uncaring and inconsiderate of the needs of the woman but truth be told women are the sole cause of this misunderstanding. It is very rare to see a woman who is confident and sure of what she wants and even rarer to meet one who isn't below the age of 65. Like men, women go through various stages but the process is so much more complicated with women that they revert to previous stages in their lives whilst men can only go forward. Ladies if you want a man to know what you really want then I strongly suggest you start by knowing what you want first.
At the end of the day it comes down to communication between the opposite sexes. Men are notorious for their failing communication skills whilst women are infamous for indecision in communication. These two obstacles have long been the main hurdles to stable relationships and have led to infidelity, destruction, emotional distress, etc.
Better than that people
R2
Monday, August 1, 2011
Their Opinion vs Mine
Trusting god is something that we all too often do not truly understand the meaning of as human beings. I am of the solid belief that despite what we are taught, pride of the flesh simply gets in the way of us trusting god. As I grow older, I see more and more that it really comes down to personal faith that distracts me from truly trusting god's will. The lack of trust is to the point that even the very teachings I receive are considered untrustworthy and as a result I find myself questioning what is and what isn't. It is true that at the end of the day the word of man is subject to the interpretation of the flesh, but who am I to say where that contortion of the truth begins and ends? Psychology and religion teaches that an inability to trust comes from a lack of self trust, the theory states that he who does not trust himself will not and cannot trust others. I believe that there's truth in that as there have been times that i have found myself doubting situations based on my own reactions to similar situations and the decisions I have made. Having said that, there have also been numerous situations where I have doubted the results of a situation based on intuition and my suspicions were proven correct. In addition to those there have also been situations where my doubts were based on how I would've personally handled the given situation.
With all of these in mind, it may very well be proven that the religious leaders and psychologists may be correct in their theory. I however have a different opinion, I firmly believe that faith and belief in god and to a lesser extent man comes with an understanding of what god will do and not what I wouldn't do. That theory states that I can trust that what I would or wouldn't do does not reflect how others especially the almighty will reflect on me. It should be noted that my theory is based on the existing social concept that what I may do for others, others may not do for me. a concept most of us are very familiar with and may live by in certain situations. Despite what the experts and so called educated may say, I do not subscribe to the concept of karma nor any version of karma as it defies the logic of forgiveness. Karma is based on the old concept of eye for an eye and as I was taught by the very religious leaders who preach of karma's existence, the old ways of eye for an eye was abolished with the coming of Christ and the establishment of the new testament. So to you hypocritical bastards I say suck a dildo for attempting to confuse my mind and faith. If I go to hell for not trusting you corrupted and sickening excuses for leaders then so be it, while I do not wish to go to hell I'm very sure that I'll be seeing you there with me.
There is one thing that they said that will always stick with me as I do agree with it, "true knowledge is only available to those with blind understanding." That statement means that in order to truly understand what is and what isn't, you must wipe your mind clean of all that you have previously learnt and allow god to truly fill your mind and spirit with HIS knowledge and not that of man. No matter which religion or faith you belong to, they all identify with that statement because it is a fundamental truth of god that no man can ever corrupt. Even though different religious leaders use the statement as a sales pitch and not with the true intended purpose of guiding what they call lost souls. Sales pitch or not, I consider that a fundamental to unlocking true knowledge, who god uses to impart this true knowledge is where my issue currently resides. So if you're like me and you're unsure if your faith is where it should be at times, I can tell you this from my personal experience, faith in god sometimes involves doing things that you wouldn't normally do. It also involves doing things that you would normally do, but anything that god has you do will always work out for the benefit of you and that's a fact!
Better than that people
R2
With all of these in mind, it may very well be proven that the religious leaders and psychologists may be correct in their theory. I however have a different opinion, I firmly believe that faith and belief in god and to a lesser extent man comes with an understanding of what god will do and not what I wouldn't do. That theory states that I can trust that what I would or wouldn't do does not reflect how others especially the almighty will reflect on me. It should be noted that my theory is based on the existing social concept that what I may do for others, others may not do for me. a concept most of us are very familiar with and may live by in certain situations. Despite what the experts and so called educated may say, I do not subscribe to the concept of karma nor any version of karma as it defies the logic of forgiveness. Karma is based on the old concept of eye for an eye and as I was taught by the very religious leaders who preach of karma's existence, the old ways of eye for an eye was abolished with the coming of Christ and the establishment of the new testament. So to you hypocritical bastards I say suck a dildo for attempting to confuse my mind and faith. If I go to hell for not trusting you corrupted and sickening excuses for leaders then so be it, while I do not wish to go to hell I'm very sure that I'll be seeing you there with me.
There is one thing that they said that will always stick with me as I do agree with it, "true knowledge is only available to those with blind understanding." That statement means that in order to truly understand what is and what isn't, you must wipe your mind clean of all that you have previously learnt and allow god to truly fill your mind and spirit with HIS knowledge and not that of man. No matter which religion or faith you belong to, they all identify with that statement because it is a fundamental truth of god that no man can ever corrupt. Even though different religious leaders use the statement as a sales pitch and not with the true intended purpose of guiding what they call lost souls. Sales pitch or not, I consider that a fundamental to unlocking true knowledge, who god uses to impart this true knowledge is where my issue currently resides. So if you're like me and you're unsure if your faith is where it should be at times, I can tell you this from my personal experience, faith in god sometimes involves doing things that you wouldn't normally do. It also involves doing things that you would normally do, but anything that god has you do will always work out for the benefit of you and that's a fact!
Better than that people
R2
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Crossroad
I've known you for some time now, we've been friends longer than I've been having sex. For years you've watched as I've grown into the man that I am today, sometimes you spoke up, and sometimes you let me run into the walls of life. As long as I've had friends you were always there, so many people you've seen me pass through and never wavered. We've never been as close as some of my other friends, but you were always there. If I had to describe you in one word, it would be durable, you've lasted longer than most people who've claimed to be in my corner can ever dream.
So I have one question for you, when did all of this change? How come after years of telling everyone that there's no feelings you suddenly develop some? What changed between when we first met and now? Why is it that now you decide to bring these confessions to me? You assured me for years that this would not happen and then you turn and do exactly what you said you wouldn't do! It's not that I don't think you're a good person, but you never were the type of woman I would be with. It's not your fault, because like you I have flaws, it's just that you're really not my type and I can't see me with you as more than a friend. All these long tears just won't help, I can't lie and say you make my heart melt. It's as simple as 1, 2, 3 there's not going to be any you and me, I'm not attracted to you in any form fashion or manner. I understand that my personality and movements may be a cause for misleading you and for this I am truly sorry. I never meant to send you any wrong signals but this is just the way I am, for years you've known me as a big dirty flirt, we've had fun and you are fun to be around, just not what I'm looking for.
Let's keep it simple and just be friends, don't force yourself to change who you are because of me. Someday you're going to make a man a very nice husband, it's just not going to be me as far as I see it. I'm not trying to put you down, as your friend I wish nothing but good blessings upon you, but I refuse to lie and say that I have any other feelings for you whatsoever. It will be unfair to you for me to force myself to be in love with you when I'm not. All that will make me is as bad a liar as any man who's ever hurt you in the past. I'm sorry love but at the end of the day this just isn't going to work and if you can't be my friend then it's best we go our separate ways from here on out. Please don't take this personally but this is just the way I feel, I know you're hurting and the rejection is tough but as I said earlier I'd rather lose a friend being truthful than be in any kind of lie for a relationship of any kind.
Whatever you decide to do from here on out is up to you, I won't hold it against you. I understand you need time to sort things out and most of all I appreciate your honesty and consideration of our friendship to bring this up. Always know that you are my friend and if ever you need me I'll come.
So I have one question for you, when did all of this change? How come after years of telling everyone that there's no feelings you suddenly develop some? What changed between when we first met and now? Why is it that now you decide to bring these confessions to me? You assured me for years that this would not happen and then you turn and do exactly what you said you wouldn't do! It's not that I don't think you're a good person, but you never were the type of woman I would be with. It's not your fault, because like you I have flaws, it's just that you're really not my type and I can't see me with you as more than a friend. All these long tears just won't help, I can't lie and say you make my heart melt. It's as simple as 1, 2, 3 there's not going to be any you and me, I'm not attracted to you in any form fashion or manner. I understand that my personality and movements may be a cause for misleading you and for this I am truly sorry. I never meant to send you any wrong signals but this is just the way I am, for years you've known me as a big dirty flirt, we've had fun and you are fun to be around, just not what I'm looking for.
Let's keep it simple and just be friends, don't force yourself to change who you are because of me. Someday you're going to make a man a very nice husband, it's just not going to be me as far as I see it. I'm not trying to put you down, as your friend I wish nothing but good blessings upon you, but I refuse to lie and say that I have any other feelings for you whatsoever. It will be unfair to you for me to force myself to be in love with you when I'm not. All that will make me is as bad a liar as any man who's ever hurt you in the past. I'm sorry love but at the end of the day this just isn't going to work and if you can't be my friend then it's best we go our separate ways from here on out. Please don't take this personally but this is just the way I feel, I know you're hurting and the rejection is tough but as I said earlier I'd rather lose a friend being truthful than be in any kind of lie for a relationship of any kind.
Whatever you decide to do from here on out is up to you, I won't hold it against you. I understand you need time to sort things out and most of all I appreciate your honesty and consideration of our friendship to bring this up. Always know that you are my friend and if ever you need me I'll come.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Departure
There are days I look at you and see only sorrow and destruction, worst are the days when all I see is genocide and torment. You live your life to destroy others, you walk this earth making enemies where you shouldn't, and at the end of it all it's me who takes the fall. Never once did you appreciate me next to you, as far as you're concerned I may as well be a piece of drift wood in the sea that you only find when you boat leaves you. The whole world said that you're the worst thing imaginable, looking back now I see why, all these nights because of you I cried, standing by your side was all I ever wanted to do, but you rejected me so what happens next is all on you. Everyday is the same, nothing but worries and pain and all the while you just stand by thinking only of you and what you're going through. Damn another day of rain, another day of you being sickening and lame, you refuse to change and leave me in pain, all the while silently I pray that one day from your hold I be relieved.
How is it can you be so wrong and not see the pain and suffering you cause? Your path to self destruction is so clear to me it feels like I'm the one driving! Sadly you don't see it because you're blinded by greed and a false vision of utopia, the world is nothing but sunshine in the park to you while I on the other hand live in the rain of your actions. How can one person be this evil, your spite knows no limit because you would destroy all that was beautiful. The only consequence you understand is annihilation, as long as everything isn't completely destroyed do you realize that you're prone to errors. This lifestyle you live makes no sense, from the hypocrisy of your morals to the process of your thoughts, it's all a big mess. You crave the spotlight yet shun it's illuminating light, how do you expect to even get by with these kind of fundamentals in your life? While we're talking about fundamentals and future living, what am I in your twisted world of sickening games and tricks? Do I look like some kind of coin machine where you stick your trick coin in with the thread and pull it back out while i activate? When you see me, do you just see a tool to use in your destructive warpath? I probably have the word convenience written all over me because that's all you treat me as, a cuntvenient tool you just pick up and use whenever you feel like it! Let's make this crystal clear, I'm not a tool and not at your beck and call, if you wanted a jackass then you should've gone to a mirror store and buy your reflection! Who do you think you are just walking into my life full of promises but empty on delivery? Your like a bad movie with good promos, full of disappointment and failure! Consider this the end of the road as far as we go, while I still sadly have love for you, don't for a second think that you have any importance to me. Your complete disrespect toward my family, my home, my dreams and my life is unacceptable in any form, fashion or manner!
I suggest that if you have any dignity left that you leave and go, this train has long stopped and it's time for your loafing backside to get the fuck off! I'm tired of all the bullshit and the drama, this has been a long and torturous time with you, standing across the street from you makes me feel like I'm suffocating! Take you lies and schemes and go straight to hell, don't look back at me because that long overdue lightning bolt will surely strike you! I don't know what woman will tolerate you ever again in this lifetime or the next, better start making peace with god, because he alone knows what ill fated actions are patiently awaiting your psycho crazed thoughts. Me on the other hand I'm moving on to a simpler life, where you're clearly not going to be if you don't change! All these years I spent believing in your potential only for you to turn and stab me in the back with all this mistrust and scam! The sad part is that you actually have what it takes to do some great good, but you're too busy being an ass to see any of that!
This is goodbye as we're at the end of this road, from here on out you're officially on your own! Leave me let me be as there's no future with you, hell at this rate i doubt there's a present too! Change your ways if you wish to see thirty, the world isn't anywhere near as patient with you as I would be. All these scams and lies is not the way to live, even your own parents may deny your very existence!
How is it can you be so wrong and not see the pain and suffering you cause? Your path to self destruction is so clear to me it feels like I'm the one driving! Sadly you don't see it because you're blinded by greed and a false vision of utopia, the world is nothing but sunshine in the park to you while I on the other hand live in the rain of your actions. How can one person be this evil, your spite knows no limit because you would destroy all that was beautiful. The only consequence you understand is annihilation, as long as everything isn't completely destroyed do you realize that you're prone to errors. This lifestyle you live makes no sense, from the hypocrisy of your morals to the process of your thoughts, it's all a big mess. You crave the spotlight yet shun it's illuminating light, how do you expect to even get by with these kind of fundamentals in your life? While we're talking about fundamentals and future living, what am I in your twisted world of sickening games and tricks? Do I look like some kind of coin machine where you stick your trick coin in with the thread and pull it back out while i activate? When you see me, do you just see a tool to use in your destructive warpath? I probably have the word convenience written all over me because that's all you treat me as, a cuntvenient tool you just pick up and use whenever you feel like it! Let's make this crystal clear, I'm not a tool and not at your beck and call, if you wanted a jackass then you should've gone to a mirror store and buy your reflection! Who do you think you are just walking into my life full of promises but empty on delivery? Your like a bad movie with good promos, full of disappointment and failure! Consider this the end of the road as far as we go, while I still sadly have love for you, don't for a second think that you have any importance to me. Your complete disrespect toward my family, my home, my dreams and my life is unacceptable in any form, fashion or manner!
I suggest that if you have any dignity left that you leave and go, this train has long stopped and it's time for your loafing backside to get the fuck off! I'm tired of all the bullshit and the drama, this has been a long and torturous time with you, standing across the street from you makes me feel like I'm suffocating! Take you lies and schemes and go straight to hell, don't look back at me because that long overdue lightning bolt will surely strike you! I don't know what woman will tolerate you ever again in this lifetime or the next, better start making peace with god, because he alone knows what ill fated actions are patiently awaiting your psycho crazed thoughts. Me on the other hand I'm moving on to a simpler life, where you're clearly not going to be if you don't change! All these years I spent believing in your potential only for you to turn and stab me in the back with all this mistrust and scam! The sad part is that you actually have what it takes to do some great good, but you're too busy being an ass to see any of that!
This is goodbye as we're at the end of this road, from here on out you're officially on your own! Leave me let me be as there's no future with you, hell at this rate i doubt there's a present too! Change your ways if you wish to see thirty, the world isn't anywhere near as patient with you as I would be. All these scams and lies is not the way to live, even your own parents may deny your very existence!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Failure
Giving until it hurts really does hurt! It hurts a lot more than we are ever warned, people drain you, leave you with nothing, scrap you down to less than your skeleton and then move on. I don't know where you came from or why I'm even next to you, but all you've ever done is take away all of my blessings. Long ago I used to live for me, to ensure that I got everything that I wanted and you changed that, you told me I was wrong to live that way and I believed you. I started sacrificing and giving to others, now look where it's gotten me, you living well and I'm in suffering. You took as much as you could away from me, left me bare, alone and empty. I have never been the same since that fateful day, now things are worst because even my family thinks like you. You were a wake up call to how cold this world really is, trusting in humans is something I struggle to do ever again. There's little of me left to barely salvage, all I am now is just scattered wreckage, I can't even control my own emotions and make sense of this life.
Everybody has their own opinion of how I should live my life, but those opinions all come with the same catch line, live for me so long as I give to them and when they suck me dry they get up and leave me for dead. It's all the same no matter where I turn, even the church is filled with the likes of these hypocrites. I hope the world is happy because now I'm a broken mess, stripped to nothing because even my pride has left! It doesn't matter what happens to me now, I have nothing left, not even a shred of hope to smile about. They say if I turn to the lord I'll see my way, but those who said that are all the same, users, abusers and rapers, taking away every last sense of what was my self respect and dignity. This is truly the end because I'm done fighting, can't hold a job and have no family to help me. I'm always left alone to face the cruelties of this world, mobbed by pretenders who are wolves in sheep clothing. As I'm on that topic of family, you bitches are the worst people on this planet. I gave you everything and you left me hanging, the people that are supposed to support me the most actually support me the least. Of all the betrayals I've faced in life, yours was the worst and you still haven't stopped. Someday I'll be gone and you won't have me to torture, by that time I'm glad I won't be able to see why you tore me to pieces.
This world is no place for someone like me, a soldier who believes that kindness is strength and a model for life. At the end of the day you're all going to be sorry, because the destruction you created will eventually eat you alive like the assholes you are. I'm not sure what to do with myself now, I've been beaten and everywhere I look all I see are frowns, this world is more than upside down it's just a mess and continually deteriorating. So many times I've hit the reset button, but I just can't get this shit right no matter how much I try. So fuck it all I'm really done, the next one of you comes near me I swear I'll put you below the ground! I don't care about prison or death, at least in those places I know what's next. Dear lord hear my cries, I'm lost and alone with no one by my side, show me a sign that this isn't permanent, this emptiness is more than I can bare anymore. I've failed in life to answer your calling, I've failed in life at everything I've attempted, I guess that's the only thing in my life that's consistent.
Everybody has their own opinion of how I should live my life, but those opinions all come with the same catch line, live for me so long as I give to them and when they suck me dry they get up and leave me for dead. It's all the same no matter where I turn, even the church is filled with the likes of these hypocrites. I hope the world is happy because now I'm a broken mess, stripped to nothing because even my pride has left! It doesn't matter what happens to me now, I have nothing left, not even a shred of hope to smile about. They say if I turn to the lord I'll see my way, but those who said that are all the same, users, abusers and rapers, taking away every last sense of what was my self respect and dignity. This is truly the end because I'm done fighting, can't hold a job and have no family to help me. I'm always left alone to face the cruelties of this world, mobbed by pretenders who are wolves in sheep clothing. As I'm on that topic of family, you bitches are the worst people on this planet. I gave you everything and you left me hanging, the people that are supposed to support me the most actually support me the least. Of all the betrayals I've faced in life, yours was the worst and you still haven't stopped. Someday I'll be gone and you won't have me to torture, by that time I'm glad I won't be able to see why you tore me to pieces.
This world is no place for someone like me, a soldier who believes that kindness is strength and a model for life. At the end of the day you're all going to be sorry, because the destruction you created will eventually eat you alive like the assholes you are. I'm not sure what to do with myself now, I've been beaten and everywhere I look all I see are frowns, this world is more than upside down it's just a mess and continually deteriorating. So many times I've hit the reset button, but I just can't get this shit right no matter how much I try. So fuck it all I'm really done, the next one of you comes near me I swear I'll put you below the ground! I don't care about prison or death, at least in those places I know what's next. Dear lord hear my cries, I'm lost and alone with no one by my side, show me a sign that this isn't permanent, this emptiness is more than I can bare anymore. I've failed in life to answer your calling, I've failed in life at everything I've attempted, I guess that's the only thing in my life that's consistent.
Monday, May 9, 2011
FAQ
1) How many kids do you want - if I had a dollar for everytime some heffer ask me this question, I wuda be rich enough to build a whole new planet earth by now! For the last time, those things cost more than bentleys and ferraris! If I cud afford one of those then maybe I cud think of purchasing a gremlin!
2) When do you want to get married - not even IF I want to get married eh, when these ppl asking! Weddings cost more than homes, have you seen the price of just renting a venue recently? What the hell is wrong with u ppl!! No eh! Besides it costs less to have a woman as a gf than a wife on multiple fronts! You disagree? Too bad!!
3) Boy when yuh going to change and be a good boy - how about my question instead, when r u gonna stop have 3somes with han and hannah? I can only be me and nobody else, if this bothers u I suggest u go tell somebody who gives a shit! I'm loud, sometimes abusive, abrupt and crazy! If it works for me then u don't matter, so suck a dildo!
4) Why do u eat so much - not becuz u does coast on good food means that I must be as dotish! Food is to eat, I just happen to eat a little more a little faster than u do so live with it!! U find I shud eat less and slower? I find u shud brush yuh teeth and wash yuh balls how about that!!
5) Why u tracking my friend and not me - why not? She better lookin than u so deal with it!!
6) Why r u such a pest - easy it's fun!! I like to be entertained and ur a perfect victim! Don't like it, daz too damn bad! I have no intentions of changing!
7) How come u smile so much - unlike u, I like being happy! I laugh because I enjoy the brighter side of life u depressing, downsyndrome!!
8) So u always feel u all that - of course I am!! Have u not seen me? I'm the best thing god made in the modern era! It's not my fault u think ur worth less than a lump of shit swmcol wudnt pick up! Deal with it!!
9) How much woman u really have - what? Wha u really insinuating with that preposterous accusation? I is a one oman man and will always be that way eh! One woman today, one woman tomorrow! Get dat straight!
10) U is a real clown inno - I didn't know that! I never went to clown school and do not possess a degree in clown behaviour! I do however have a double masters in goofing off and tomfoolery! Heheheheheheheheehheheheee!
Now that u have ur answers! Ask some new questions dammit!!
2) When do you want to get married - not even IF I want to get married eh, when these ppl asking! Weddings cost more than homes, have you seen the price of just renting a venue recently? What the hell is wrong with u ppl!! No eh! Besides it costs less to have a woman as a gf than a wife on multiple fronts! You disagree? Too bad!!
3) Boy when yuh going to change and be a good boy - how about my question instead, when r u gonna stop have 3somes with han and hannah? I can only be me and nobody else, if this bothers u I suggest u go tell somebody who gives a shit! I'm loud, sometimes abusive, abrupt and crazy! If it works for me then u don't matter, so suck a dildo!
4) Why do u eat so much - not becuz u does coast on good food means that I must be as dotish! Food is to eat, I just happen to eat a little more a little faster than u do so live with it!! U find I shud eat less and slower? I find u shud brush yuh teeth and wash yuh balls how about that!!
5) Why u tracking my friend and not me - why not? She better lookin than u so deal with it!!
6) Why r u such a pest - easy it's fun!! I like to be entertained and ur a perfect victim! Don't like it, daz too damn bad! I have no intentions of changing!
7) How come u smile so much - unlike u, I like being happy! I laugh because I enjoy the brighter side of life u depressing, downsyndrome!!
8) So u always feel u all that - of course I am!! Have u not seen me? I'm the best thing god made in the modern era! It's not my fault u think ur worth less than a lump of shit swmcol wudnt pick up! Deal with it!!
9) How much woman u really have - what? Wha u really insinuating with that preposterous accusation? I is a one oman man and will always be that way eh! One woman today, one woman tomorrow! Get dat straight!
10) U is a real clown inno - I didn't know that! I never went to clown school and do not possess a degree in clown behaviour! I do however have a double masters in goofing off and tomfoolery! Heheheheheheheheehheheheee!
Now that u have ur answers! Ask some new questions dammit!!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Character
The true test of character is where you're in your deepest darkest moments that may seem too much to overcome. As a christian I believe that Christ is the ultimate answer to all that exist and may yet arise, but in the end, he gave us the power of choice, therefore we must choose him. Having the courage to choose him is itself a test of character, it tests your faith in one whom you cannot see, it tests your courage to let go of your self control and hand it over to another, even if he's the highest creator. Rising to that occasion takes more than any one is willing to admit, the thought of summoning the required energy to cry out for help is almost as daunting as admitting that we actually need help and what kind of help we need.
At the end of the day, who we become and what we do, is determined by us and the decisions we make both past and present. Character plays an integral role in that process as its strength and polarity (positive or negative) is the determining force by which we make our decisions.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Divide and Conquer
The old adage that the individual is smart but the crowd is dumb holds as much merit today as it did when it was first used. In my many travels I have long seen the many examples of how one person can manipulate an entire mob into his thinking with nothing more than a few well placed words. He who travels alone travels in wisdom for he is uninfluenced by the thoughts of the confused, this is something my late grandmother once said to me and it is only now I can truly understand what she meant by that statement. In my lifetime I have seen how even my own mind can be swayed so easily by the force of a crowd, but it is only in recent times have I been able to see and be the person who influences the ebb and flow of the audience that I once sought after with such vigor.
Influencing the minds of many simply boils down to controlling a few actually, tacticians call it divide and conquer. The process is simple yet complicated, it requires that the stronger minds be separated from the weaker ones so the required controlling mental mechanisms can be placed, but therein lies the problem, how do you identify the stronger minds from the frail ones? That requires either a socially versed individual or a trained psychologist! Those of us who can differentiate however, will find that with some well chosen words people can be whipped into a frenzy over anything and everything! I've found it intriguing that in my last couple of encounters with people, I have been able to turn them against their own foundation values with some well placed stories and by turning some of their own against them! These people were staunch supporters of their cause and by simply having one or two of their kind turned against them they crumbled under the supposed pressure! So you think this can't happen to you? I have news for you my friend, it's probably happened more times than you can count. The process begins with an idea in the mind of someone, let's say a political motive for instance, so a candidate wants to convert supporters to his party in order to win his seat. The candidate's first objective is to find the weaker minds in the support base of his competition and steal from there. In the case of the candidate he will need to identify what drives the support of his opponent and work from there, finding the source of the support often leads to identifying loop holes in the system and thus exposing vulnerable targets. Some candidates may choose the other option which is to identify leading members and control those people and then take the support through peer pressure. Deciding which approach to take is always key to being effective in your job, for if you choose the wrong approach then like the candidate you'll be exposed for your trickery and ultimately shut down by the very masses you aimed to control.
The other part to effective division is to ensure that when the division is formed, to ensure that you continue to divide the groups until they end up in small and easily manageable tribes that you can enslave with your mental superiority. Once this is done rebuild the groups that you have conquered to overwhelm those that you haven't and the end product is ultimate victory. It should be noted that utilising this means of winning people is considered tyrannic and somewhat immoral by society, but then again what does society know? So you can use this method or the softer and more sinister approach of identifying the needy amongst the support base. I myself have used this method time and time again and I actually have a 95% success record. Identifying the needy in the group is easier done than said, needy people are as easy to read as the West Indian First Edition. They are the quietest ones in the group and possess the least amount of confidence for the given situation. These people are easily manipulated by basic signs of someone assissting with their situation and can be easily swayed toward moving the rest of the crowd. This approach does have a drawback though, it requires that there are enough needy people to sway the masses and that their situations are dire enough to ensure that the mission is accomplished.
Yes I've showed you how to spot weaklings so ask yourself are you the person that someone like me maybe targetting? If so I suggest you do some work on yourself
Influencing the minds of many simply boils down to controlling a few actually, tacticians call it divide and conquer. The process is simple yet complicated, it requires that the stronger minds be separated from the weaker ones so the required controlling mental mechanisms can be placed, but therein lies the problem, how do you identify the stronger minds from the frail ones? That requires either a socially versed individual or a trained psychologist! Those of us who can differentiate however, will find that with some well chosen words people can be whipped into a frenzy over anything and everything! I've found it intriguing that in my last couple of encounters with people, I have been able to turn them against their own foundation values with some well placed stories and by turning some of their own against them! These people were staunch supporters of their cause and by simply having one or two of their kind turned against them they crumbled under the supposed pressure! So you think this can't happen to you? I have news for you my friend, it's probably happened more times than you can count. The process begins with an idea in the mind of someone, let's say a political motive for instance, so a candidate wants to convert supporters to his party in order to win his seat. The candidate's first objective is to find the weaker minds in the support base of his competition and steal from there. In the case of the candidate he will need to identify what drives the support of his opponent and work from there, finding the source of the support often leads to identifying loop holes in the system and thus exposing vulnerable targets. Some candidates may choose the other option which is to identify leading members and control those people and then take the support through peer pressure. Deciding which approach to take is always key to being effective in your job, for if you choose the wrong approach then like the candidate you'll be exposed for your trickery and ultimately shut down by the very masses you aimed to control.
The other part to effective division is to ensure that when the division is formed, to ensure that you continue to divide the groups until they end up in small and easily manageable tribes that you can enslave with your mental superiority. Once this is done rebuild the groups that you have conquered to overwhelm those that you haven't and the end product is ultimate victory. It should be noted that utilising this means of winning people is considered tyrannic and somewhat immoral by society, but then again what does society know? So you can use this method or the softer and more sinister approach of identifying the needy amongst the support base. I myself have used this method time and time again and I actually have a 95% success record. Identifying the needy in the group is easier done than said, needy people are as easy to read as the West Indian First Edition. They are the quietest ones in the group and possess the least amount of confidence for the given situation. These people are easily manipulated by basic signs of someone assissting with their situation and can be easily swayed toward moving the rest of the crowd. This approach does have a drawback though, it requires that there are enough needy people to sway the masses and that their situations are dire enough to ensure that the mission is accomplished.
Yes I've showed you how to spot weaklings so ask yourself are you the person that someone like me maybe targetting? If so I suggest you do some work on yourself
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