Excess

It's been a while since I've updated this blog but that's only because of the unfolding drama between two friends that has escalated into a series of unfortunate events. Most of my entries have been focused on the causes of losing battles against the Earthbound Immortals. This time I'm going to focus on the consequences of giving in to these demons.

When we give in to ignorance we confuse the mind and darken the soul. We lose focus of our mind and heart and fall into a desert of despair and desperation. The only thing worse than giving into the power of the Earthbound Immortals is handing over complete control of your being and delving into excess negativity. Be warned that the bible, qu'ran, iching and even the gita warns about excess in anything is above and beyond dangerous, it's outright forbidden. The reason for this is that when we over indulge, we become slaves and worshipers of idols other than god, it doesn't matter what it may be whether alcohol, arrogance, desire or even self development. In case your still not sure why you would be "denied" ultimate pleasure, consider this: men and women who overindulge in sex become immune to the pleasure that it is because the nerves become desensitized and unresponsive, when someone is drunk with behaviour they're often embarassed when it is displayed in public and they're constantly reminded of it, the longer you hold an 8oz glass of water for more than an hour your arm becomes tired and pains of exhaustion. All these examples mean that life was in fact designed to be lived within limits and reason, just as our bodies are limited in their physical attributes. If we were really designed to live above and beyond then our design would be vastly varied to be able to absorb the ridiculous levels of abuse that would be inflicted upon them.

Just thought I'd give you something to think about next time you decide to live over the edge. Beware the Earthbound Immortal Luxur

Questions

The source of all curiosity begins in the heart, it is the first to wonder at the world and all it beholds even at the costliest of prices. We may not know it but we ask more questions than we get answers on a daily basis with some questions taking years to answer. When something occurs that is beyond our understanding we ask a question in hopes that answer shall be forthcoming sooner rather than later. What we don't realize is that the answers we receive is determined by the timing and nature of our questions. Sadly as human beings we are the most impatient and confused of all god's wondrous creations, we assume that we are above and beyond all without understanding the truth behind our role on this planet.

In our ignorance we find that some of the most unfortunate of incidents are often repeated because we don't ask the required question to gain the answers we seek. We're so convinced that we have the answers to all our own problems that it often eludes the mind and the eyes that sometimes the answers to our problems are not within our reach but often require the influence of god in order to be obtained. Mankind must understand that the knowledge we seek is useless once we do not fully comprehend the full uses of the answers we acquire, a perfect example is the use of food, for years it has been confined to consumption by the flesh and now it is being experimented for machine consumption. It has taken man more than a century since the invention of the automobile to gain the finite knowledge that we now possess. Had we turned to the only source of infinite wisdom we have available through god this problem would have been overcome many years sooner, and who knows the problems we're experiencing with global warming may not have existed.

The simple fact of the matter is that man is unable to solve his own problems, if this were not true then we wouldn't be in half the messes of life we encounter multiple times now would we? Therefore pride and arrogance must be put aside so that we may be able to ask the appropriate questions at the appropriate time. Only when these are done will we be able to learn and grow in faith and spirit.

Borders

Barriers exist for one purpose in life and that is to prevent access to a place, situation or even people. Some barriers exist as border lines designed to limit reach and access to personal space by establishing a limiting line or the creation of walls and moats. It's true that not all borders and barriers are designed to protect us, some were designed to restrict us from growing and prospering in life while others were created to prevent us from seeing the truth. It is important to be able to identify which barriers are to our benefit and which are to our detriment. Sadly most people are unable to identify whether a barrier is positive or negative because they cannot differentiate the true purpose of the border restriction. A good example is the borderline between nations, these borders were established not only as a form of territorial markings but also as a hidden form of population control. Without national borders especially on continents such as the Americas where multiple nations share one land mass would be in absolute chaos. These borders allow billions of people to be split into manageable amounts for various nations where economic balance can be established without being overwhelmed by the very people they were elected to lead and protect.

Positive borders were designed to protect us from ourselves as well as others. These borders whether set by ourselves or others have identified that a particular situation or person is uhealthy for our development and as such should be avoided. To be able to identify a positive border, it's important that you know what you really want for yourself in life so you can decipher between what helps and what doesn't. Positive barriers prevent you from falling over treacherous precipices that will ruin your life and career, they are often mistaken for negative barriers due to our own impatience and lack of wisdom and experience. It must be pointed out that matters of the heart are most susceptible to this behaviour as it is these that we most treasure and are willing to hold on to at any cost. Ironically positive borders were meant to ensure that we avoid these unnecessary sacrifices bvy revealing the truth about a particular topic, situation or person. In order for us to see the heart of the truth we must be able to remove our personal feelings and opinions as they are blinkers to our eyes in order to behold the greater picture. This revelation will allow you to see where you really stand in the whole scheme and consequently point out the positive barriers and what they're saving you from.

Negative barriers are those that prevent us from accomplishing our goals and dreams. The scariest fact about these barriers are that they are powered by the Earthbound Immortals Pride, Jealousy and Lust. These are true barriers and not just borders as they not only blind and prevent us from growing and learning, they out right obstruct our paths using our very means of movement. These barriers are comparable to concrete road blocks planted in the middle of a highway, they not only impede but they cause tremendous backlogs and and consequential accidents and unforseen dangers that derail our lives and leave us stranded and distraught. Negative barriers also serve as a diversion in life, sadly the direction that it leads to is the dreaded desert of despair, where doubt and depression await all who dare to tread its sands. The only way to recognize a negative barrier is to be able to admit to your weaknesses and learn to overcome them. Negativity preys on the weak points of us all and if left unchecked can reduce even mighty men to nothing more than a grain of sand.

The sad reality is that while positive borders are created by outside forces mostly, negative barriers are almost always created by ourselves. If we can't do something as simple as look ourselves in the mirror and see what needs to be repaired within ourselves, we'll be jus like the unmaintained home that falls apart with each passing day due to neglect.

Sabotage

It's unfortunate that once again I find myself writing again about the topic of relationships and what goes wrong. It's a very sad reality that people do sabotage their own happy homes for the sake of worshipping the Earthbound Immortals that plague this world. Pride, lust and greed are the main idols that both men and women give into that erode true happiness and remove us not only from the presence of god but also the gifts he bestowed upon us such as that relationship you're trying to screw up.

I can't emphasize enough the pain that comes with such actions, pain not only to the person committing the act but especially to those on the receiving end as well. In case your wondering what it's like on either end consider this, in a case of infidelity in even a one (1) year relationship, the person committing the sin is trapped in a sub-concious storm clash between a long term commitment and the adrenaline of being a prize catch in the eyes of others. This battle is the quintessential fundamental in determining the cause of infidelity. It is especially most rampant in between the ages of 16 - 40 with the worst cases being in the mid twenties. This lack of control over emotions was predominantly associated with men, but over the past couple of decades evidence has surfaced that also identify women as the cause as well. In either which case, it comes down to the individual versus the relationship itself. Humans have a natural need to be wanted by others and seek companionship, it is this same needs that gives rise to longterm relationships and marriage, but sadly it's also the cause of delinquent partners. The need to be wanted by others is dangerous when left unchecked, it can develop simple communication into carnal escapades that are not easily explained to one's significant other. When forbidden attractions do develop outside the relationship, the first stage of communication break down begins, where the cheating partner is unable to maintain communication levels due to a fear of revealing the truth to their significant others and the consequences that will follow. This in turn leads to a break down in trust (due to increasing suspicion) and eventually the crumbling of the relationship whether the truth is revealed or not.

Pride is a lesser known force of demolition in relationships, while it's compatriot lust is starkingly conspicuous, pride is as silent as a shinobi and not only destroys relationships but lives as well. Pride is that element that doesn't allow you to admit you have a problem, it prevents you from coming to terms with your inner most feelings as it dictates that this is weak and not to be condoned. This blindness traps people in destroyed relationships that are abusive on the mind and soul, it cages souls in lies and deceit all while creating a labyrinth of illusions designed to disorient and confuse the individual so that they can't think or see that the answers are right in front of them. Arrogance, ignorance, distrust, rage and envy are all children of the Earthbound Immortal Superbia, they feed on the over exertion of emotions and grow as hate is added as a hyper accelerant.

Let all who read beware, we can never escape unhappiness so long as we are ruled by these forces. Healing requires true forgiveness of self as well as offenders for we ask the lord to forgive us. Pride and lust must not be in the way of our true healing as these will lead to our internal demise and overall destruction. They cause us to act irrationally and blaze an already raging inferno.

Beware the wrath of the Earthbound Immortals

New Beginnings

I was asked tonight by a dear friend if I ever think about settling down, the truth is I've been thinking about it everyday for the past year. As my heart healed and my mind and body was altered to unleash the new me, I thought alot about the lifestyle I've enjoyed and the pros and cons about it all. Single life has allowed me to really have a good look at myself, the time I've spent in meditation and soul searching has revealed traits and facts about myself that even I wasn't aware of at all. Some of these included previously unnoticed weaknesses and faulty traits that have led to the demise of many of my relationships and have contributed to some of the poor decisions I've made in the past. It's also allowed me to behold the kind of woman I really want to settle with and eventually marry in the forseeable future. I've been blessed through the many female friends that I have to see multiple traits and qualities in women and then study them in live combat. Honestly speaking, women are confusing to the untrained male, if your not sure what your looking to see in them it is beyond easy to be trapped and bewildered.

Now that I know what I really want, I can honestly say that yes I am ready to be committed again, but this time i'm playing for keeps. I'm older and wiser now so I'm better prepared for the game players and the masters of misdirection. My eyes have been empowered with a vision beyond the physical and my heart and mind are conditioned for the patience needed to endure the abuse of lies and deceit. Don't be fooled world, I'm still the same old RR, but with a few vital mods that will reinforce me against your trickery and pseudo ideals. I think the best part about this new me is that I'm proving to myself day by day that I've outgrown the old games and it's time to hang up the guns and bring out the new books and artillery. Your probably wondering what is it that I really look for in a woman, well the answer is simple, i want to be able to look at my reflection. There's no other way for this to work with me, I've tested multiple samples so I'm sure that this is the best way for me to go. No world you can't fool me with the look alikes anymore, I know me and I know what I want, so piss off with your horrendous imitations that crumble before my divine might!!

This is to a new beginning with new outcomes, I've finally been blessed with the answers I've long prayed for so it's time to plant some seeds and complete my dream. It's true that I still do have some issues to work on, but that's just part of why I'm the best by test!!

Casualties

It's been a usual christmas build up here in the streets, this is a season plagued with inconsistencies around the world and for very good reason. Marred with constant vices and conflicting roots, this holiday no longer has an identity of any variety. For years I've been in limbo as to the true meaning of this holiday, it's a shame that what I found out turned into a lifelong war and prejudice against the Catholic faith and all who support their views. As far as my research has allowed me to see, this so called "holy" holiday has been filled with nothing but violence and destruction leaving many victims in its wake. Leaders have used it as an excuse to to dominate weaker civilizations for millenia, but it's roots are soaked in violence and corruption. A holiday based on a society being ridiculed for its beliefs and then overthrown and converted by force is bound to reap the level of destruction that plagues the planet today.

More than three millenia ago, some very unscrupulous and distasteful catholics overthrew a society of pagans and forced them into christianity and then absorbed their celebrations of solstice and yule (both festivals honouring false gods Saturnalia and Mirthra respectively). This adaptation was cursed from the beginning and is the truth behind the constant chaos and commercial veins of today's celebrations. Growing up in the streets, I've seen this holiday degenerate into a pile of utter distaste and war. Each passing year has beena continual downward spiral especially at this time of year, as false feelings of good cheer continued to be spread masquerading as a holy holiday in the name of christ!! How dare you blaspheme the name of Christ with your pseudo celebrations that have clearly been marinated in the stench of pagan ways and ideals. The saddest part is not what was done but what continues to be supported after all these years of the church itself admitting that it covered up records that revealed the truth about this farce, spiritual leaders still encourage their members to conform to this horrendous and blasphemous celebration.

Let the world beware that support of such follies is the foundation of it's demise, many more will fall at the hands of such distasteful lie and deception. Beware the Earthbound Immortal Decipere

Loose Ends

It's been two long years since that fateful day, two years of pain and silent suffering, two years of learning and healing, two years of contemplating and planning. I didn't know it back then, but that day would be a landmark in my life. It would mark the end of an era and shatter many of my beliefs and destroy values that I once held dear. Fate had already planned for you to go and I see that more than clearly now, as much as I fought for otherwise it just would not be. It's a shame that I ignored all the early warning signs that would have saved me many a strain, the visions were clear and the opportunities were many, but I ignored them all.

The say that love is blind and that is why it's scars are deep, I would agree! After all it's taken me an entire two years to get to this point in my life where I can safely say I'm finally over you and I'm ready to move forward. The mistrust and fear is gone, the worry and concern still lingers, but those are from the lessons learnt. I allowed myself to be fooled by you and I paid the ultimate price for my foolish heart. Let this be the last of you that will reside in me, now cast out never to return again, it's funny that after all this time the bad feelings are gone and I can see who you really are. I still see the person I fell in love with, but I also see a person I previously was blind to. I must admit that this sight has revealed a new gift in me, my eyes are now able to take time and act as early warning sensors for they see into the soul and not just the flesh. Had I not met you the experiences I've gained and the people I've met would have been blind to me, so I thank you for that too. Most of all I thank you for allowing me to do the one thing that has eluded me for many years, and that's the ability to open my heart and truly love.

If not for your scheming ways I would not have seen my own weaknesses, and would have been another educated ignorant fool walking this planet. God truly knows what he did when he sent you into my life, and as I said then and I say now, you're a heaven sent and that you will always be. I am thankful that you were in my life and for all that I've learnt, you truly were instrumental in helping me grow into the man that I am today. I'm no longer mad at you for what happened as I now know that this is life and it can happen to anyone at anytime for any reason. I have a better understanding of who I am as a whole and even though it will take time for me to rebuild my life the future is clear as to where I'm going and what I want for me in my life and my happiness.

Perhaps the most important lesson you've taught me though, is that despite all my knowledge I still have alot to learn and many a way to go in life. Now that I can see that my veil of arrogance is gone and the real me can step forward into a new light and new life with confidence and assertiveness. If you ever get to read this I wish you well in life and hope that you accomplish all that your heart desires

Let this be the final knot to tie in these loose ends, be well Starriegold Kallie!!!