First Cut

There are times I sit and wonder what life would be like had I chosen you and not her. Would I have learned any more or any less than I do at this stage? How much more would you have given me than her? What kind of man would I have been walking that road with you? It was a horrible decision to walkaway from you the way I did, I took advantage of your fragile state and became the very thing you feared the most.

I sometimes see you in public and watch how you avoid my line of sight in vain, I wonder what would you say having to see the broken mess I became. I remember your last words to me "she will be the reason you walkaway" and how true have those words been. When I think of all that I have endured I always remember it's because of the wrong I did to you, never getting the chance to say I'm sorry or even to show you how right you were. I guess the best thing I did was leave you, time has certainly been kinder to you than me. I still watch your progress and see your success, makes me smile to see that your potential is being unleashed and shining brightly for all the world to see. I know someday we gonna cross paths again, I only hope and pray that on that day I'm man enough to face you.

Generation tracks

This topic of parenting is becoming an issue, not too long ago I made some statements as per the video about the child being hit with a belt with a webcam.recording. Lemme be absolutely clear about this, to those of you who claim the child is being abused and traumatized be aware that it is this same lack of discipline in school that was the catalyst for the utter disregard for authority that persists in the education system today.

When consequences are removed i.e the rod, and the child is spoilt then the chaos to follow is what you the society complain about daily! Homicides, rapes, assault and robberies and even buggery are all degenerated forms of basic indiscipline. How does it happen? Like this; when children are aware that their actions have no consequence they will push the envelope as far as they can, consequences are borders designed to teach them that it is not safe for borders to be crossed. So let's say a child steals $2 from your wallet, then you decide untalk to the child, the child will realize that nothing more than words came of the act so they will repeat it and this time it may be $100. Of course there's also the idea of what the money will end up doing but later on for that. So now the $100 goes missing and you still have a one on one with the child and maybe do something mild like put the child in a corner to sit for the day, then what, you think that will now deter the child from stealing?? No it encourages the child to steal because nothing has happened you have not taken any form of corrective action. Now onto what the money may end up doing, a child with unearned anything is a hazard to the world, because they will place no value on these things and whether it be toys, money or your car keys expect that it will be treated with disdain because they did not earn it. That freedom pushes the child even further and that is when the real escalation occurs. Adolescents are addicted to sensations, the feelings and emotions are powerful and overwhelm them so they cannot comprehend the chaos they are heading into all because you the parent have not set any parameters via the lack of escalated discipline. Congratulations you have successfully given rise to the next generation of gangs and gang leaders as well as a new wave of crime instituted by unpunished immature radicals with the misguided invincibility of Superman!!

After all that was said some people will still talk about the child being traumatized. OK let's talk about trauma, indiscipline in children warps the mind and creates a peter pan illusion that the world is an open playground that has no rules but their own based on selfish and often misguided ideals that they define order and structure. This order and structure they anticipate as a reality is a mixture of multiple cross messages from different mediums and media and ultimately creates the chaos we see them displaying today. Do not be confused, open communication with children is important but unless there is an ultimate discipline to establish borders and boundaries all you are doing is fostering a new and even more dangerous age of mayhem, arrogance, ignorance and ultimate doom.

Is it you or the world?

Do good every time and good will follow, these are words that every church and motivating speech are filled with. Designed to activate a mental adrenaline rush that the more good we do the more we will receive. So how is it there are more than one billion people suffering from constant torment both physical and mental? What are these billion people doing wrong that these world livers and well wishers are doing right? Here's some reality:

1. Not all that glitters is gold: simply put do not be deceived by what your eyes see. The ancient art of misdirection perfected by Harry Houdini and passed on to generations after exist and flourish outside of the halls of magic. Many people who live in illusions of grandeur and pictures of positive living are steeped in torment and are prisoners of their own illusions. Most are not even close to being better than you but fight hard to fake being successful and at peace to project a false sense of achievement and contentment. When the lights come off and the stage comes down long tears of torment and suffering are shed behind closed doors where you won't see. Think of the person u always see in nice cars and fancy clothes but only shows up to a party in them, when you're not looking those people are struggling to find gas money for that nice car and have to constantly reimagine ideas to scavenge new clothing.

2. Dishonest fortune: the old people say never let yuh eye reach in d neighbour yard! This is so true because you do not know what someone else endured to acquire the mass material gains they have. Very many people do not know about hard work so instead they steal, plunder and terrorize others foe their treasures in hopes of mirroring the wealth they dream to own. Dirty money is a common factor of modern day life and those who are slaved to it sacrifice their bodies, their dignity, their honour and their legacy in the name of appearing to be well put together. Remember drug lords and assassins live in 10 bedroom prisons with bullet proof incarcerations known as luxury security in order to possess a fraction of peace that you enjoy lazily.

3. Know your limits: too often we are our own destroyers, charity and love for humanity is only as good as you're able to afford. How is it you want to earn $5000/month pay a rent of $2500/month and still lend a friend $10000?? Its impossible to stretch your hands that far and this is one of the key downfalls for "good people." There is no gain or additional karma to be gained by handing over yourself to debt and strife for the sake of others. Of course when you do these things and make yourself utterly useless people will leave you because you have rendered yourself worthless and a liability to the same people who are struggling with you!! Just the same way it is not right for you to associate with those less profitable than yourself so too shall you be seen as unprofitable when you spend all your life unable to provide for yourself. In law enforcement we have a saying " self preservation first" you cannot protect others if you cannot protect yourself and this is a fact. So who are you to try and save all of your friends but end up leaving yourself a dead corpse at the bottom of a ravine wandering the earth with vengeance on your mind for those who "abandoned you?"

4. Have balance: in anything that you do balance is key, from the types of associations to keep to the commitment levels issued to factors of your life, moderation is key. While its OK to socialize ever so often excess socialization is a drain on multiple factors of your life including home, work, revenue and productivity of self. Excess work reduces your ability to function around the world, all you will know and speak is work so what you basically become is an echo box for your employer!!

5. Understand self: I cannot express how important mastering your own being is to survival. Always be aware that just as you can spot flaws and loopholes in the personality of someone else so too can your weaknesses and strengths be seen. If however you cannot see the steel beam in yuh eye then you are forever doomed to being slaved to the whims and fancies of others who will now control you. When you are controlled you then call these people manipulators and deceivers but it is you who have left yourself unguarded by lacking the understanding of your experiences to see the limitations of your strengths and the depths of your weaknesses. That equates to being a sheep in the open savannah wondering why lions and cheetahs are hunting you. Yes the savannah plains have plenty of grass for you to grow big and strong but you have no armour and all that grass makes you full of meat, ideal for lions and cheetahs and dingos and leopards and vultures! How is it the world is being unfair to you who have exposed yourself??

The problem begins and ends with you, if you have no control over you then you cannot solve the problem.

Better than that people
R2

Then………Now………………Forever…………………

There are times I still think about you. Days go by when I wonder what life would be like had we walked a different road, had I not been so hasty, had you not gone with that friend, had I not gone with your friend. I wish at times we could have sorted things out like adults and not be at war with each other. It's such a shame we couldn't see past each other's flaws and helped build each other to become better people, maybe all now we would have been living our dreams and not nightmares. I see you on the move looking stressed and dejected, the world certainly has taken its toll on your youth making you seem older than you really are or is it that I haven't grown up like you have and still linger behind in maturity, or is it that now I see your true colours. Is it that I see the deceit and torment you are enduring because of his torturous ways? Is it that now you see the monster you created and the evil you willingly unleashed that has you bearing the world of guilt that has you trapped in a fast aging life of grief? Either which way I see the truth, I see the struggle to get free of hell, I see the need to dodge falling brimstone, I see the desire to escape the fire!

If I were you I would look stressed too, I would feel the weight of a solar system crushing my shoulders, I would feel the stress of an army hunting me like a dog. But no I don't feel this way and this is why you can't look at me, when you see me you see joy, you see strength, you dirty my name because you can't are your way even with him. How sad that after all the effort to discredit me I'm still going even further than you could have imagined! You tried your best to set me back but all you did was put me on a slingshot to freedom, freedom from your prison, freedom from your suffering, freedom from your eternal misery and disgust. So even though we could have been good, as of now I'm even better!!

Jack the Whipper

So long we have been told slavery is abolished, apartheid terminated, segregation extinct and fossilized. There's nothing further from the truth though, daily the demands of the working world have been increasing with even routine office jobs now being made to work excess hours with heavier commitments and threats of termination if such demands are not agreed to, it reminds me of Jack the Whipper in the story of Roots where he ordered a slave to confess his new name as Toby and forsake his given name of Kunta Kente.

In these modern times where everything seems so equal and balanced, there are glass ceilings we have been hitting via the subliminal insertion of societal segregation disguised as class definition. In the old days of apartheid, it was illegal for blacks and whites to use the same bathroom or ride on the same end of the bus, well after the great Madiba (Nelson Mandela for those of you not up to speed on history), you now have certain positions and tools being made unavailable to people of a particular skin type or gender. Don't believe me, consider this, Oprah Winfrey has been a longtime household name for her acclaimed and legendary television series. She has performed many great feats of charity and has been a longtime member of the Fortune 500 club. You would think with all of that backing her when she launched her own cable network she would receive the same backing and endorsement she has given to so many in her days belonging to a network. Well surprise surprise the only people who really supported her were the Discovery Channel and Tyler Perry. With Sean Combs later joining in its amazing how many people do not actually want Oprah to succeed. She herself has been publicly critical of the support not given to her even by the very businesses she once rubbed elbows with when they were using her name to get their products into our homes. Back track a decade to the then upstart UPN who didn't even  own a proper television series but somehow got multiple endorsements from around the world and we begin to see where the new borders of inequity exist.

Classification of people based on their perceived financial capabilities is the most degrading form of societal separation ever. It has gotten so bad it even trickles down into children as daily more and more cases of peer abuse due to some children being better off than others. Exactly how is this different fro. The days of blacks riding in the back of the bus?? The rise of technology has given us a very public and graphic look at the effects of such disparity. It has gotten worst to now that wealth is being attained by a wider variety of people, now you have higher and lower classesof wealth, with only the selected higher class being afforded mass support for their continued success whilst the rest continue to slave at the plantation of Jack the Whipper trying their best to buy back their forty acres and own a plantation.


Better than that society
R2

Return of the Word

It's been a while since I've been here, the advent of new technology though allows for plenty. As I'm on the topic of plenty, I very often wonder what the world would be like without it.

Today's world is literally revolves around anything that consumes some sort of electricity. Whether it be cell phones, tablets, appliances, cars, whatever have you it most likely demands some form of electricity. With such demands for a limited supply of power one has to wonder what would really happen should the world shut down one day.what would happen if we were forced to communicate with each other via face to face conversations for extended hours of the day. Think you can do it? Do you really think you can unplug for even a day? OK consider this, in 1993 to operate a desktop computer required specialized training from a certified tech master with at least advanced hardware and software knowledge especially of the DOS operating software or Linux for you longtime nerds. These days even macbook first timers can just walk in a store purchase one and use it immediately with barely a crash course from the neighbour. These conveniences have made the world so small that going from the Caribbean to Australia is but a click of a screen. Imagine unplugging yourself from the ability to instant message or even use basic text messaging, then add no more social media, email, or mobile phone calls. Believe it or not such times existed, I remember less than ten years ago touch screen cell phones were the wave of some far away universe in science fiction imagination.

The downside of such convenience though is that it leads us to dangerous temptations. The human penchant to push the limits of life has seen a remarkable increase of the levels of abuse attained within such a short space of time. In less than a decade of development mankind has become much more promiscuous  with a sharp rise in infidelity on the part of both genders. Men and women can now easily discard of evidence of indiscretions with the touch of a button. Children now teach their parents how to operate devices intended for adults and then turn and abuse the use of these devices ending up many times on the wrong side of the law.

The new saying is that smarter devices make dumber people and it is very true. We rely more on the device and less on our abilities makimg the devices a measure of our intellect and accuracy instead of the other way around. Consequently this limits the abilities of the average human returning us essentially to neanderthalesque days where man was incapable of not much more than reproduction and even then we are surpassed and measured by machines. Check yourself who really is master and operator.........................

Best Friend......................

It's not the same when we have to start and stop, you come so close and you go so far. I let you in and now you want out, it's the daily confusion of so called "best friends." Surely I've learnt my lesson from you, never again will I invest in someone who's determined to not go anywhere with me. You have the world of excuses why you won't try, so from here on out no more tears, only those who going the distance will I ever ever cry. You claim to be different but really you're just like the rest, raising my stress and deceiving this bleeding thing in my chest. Moving away from you was hard because I honestly believed you when you said we going to go far, now I see that you're happy being ill treated and used as a doormat.

I'm about up to the ceiling with all these lies, why would you lead me on and then say it was your alter ego? You knew what you did and you know why you stopped, I just wish you would stop lying and be out with the truth. I've been nothing but straightforward and genuine with you, but you've always held back and perhaps it's time I did too. You say you want things the way they used to be, but for that to happen you won't mean anything to me. I won't waste anymore of your time trying to be that kind of friend, what you really want is a toy that you can play with and cast aside whenever you feel like. It's not all bad because I've learnt a lot about myself from you, I've seen why people advantage me and what I need to do to stop that. I've also seen why full commitment is a waste of time, it makes no sense when everyone else is holding a piece of them away from you . Some day you're going to feel the pain I feel now, I won't be there to pull you out though, by that time I'll be over you and suffering a new slavery, but at least I'll be wise enough to know when to escape.

Let this be a lesson to all of my readers, it's no fun being in love when somebody pretends not to love you back. You can try how much you like with people, but birds of a feather really do flock together and they're heifers the same way............................................................