Secrets

What is it about you that attracts my eyes? Show me the mystery you hide inside, let me see that deep energy that fights hard to break free from your mighty containment grip! The passion that lurks for a way out to pour onto me and wash me completely and purely. Every time I gaze into your deep dark eyes, all I see is purity dwelling inside, a soul so pure and happy, filled with limitless divinity rushing around awaiting an unbridled release! A release that makes rivers waterfalls and winds typhoons! A pure ecstasy that can't be pilled or bottled neither cut up or swallowed, but only unleashed til all is emptied and all that's left is the draining of sorrows and torment. I know that deep inside this well exists for I have seen it flowing in a violent circle, churning and twisting fighting to be free.

This is the secret of you that you hide from me, afraid that if I find it I will be the one who takes away the substance you treasure so much. I can't blame you but like the adventurers of times long ago, I fear no uncharted route with you, I know there are perils you have not yet revealed but my ship is sturdy and bears many trades unknown to your majestic royalty. Show me your secret treasure let me value it as well and I shall show you my secret treasure that only you have the key to see. Sweetly tickled am I at getting close to your deep desires, gently caressing the pores of your juicy fruit that call out to me with a guiding volume. I am lured into the depths of your being immersed deeply into the path to your secret collection.

Closer I come but faster you run in vain trying to escape my discovery of your golden paradise, sweetly embraced in your destiny forever engulfed in the river passion that is your secret desire.

First Cut

There are times I sit and wonder what life would be like had I chosen you and not her. Would I have learned any more or any less than I do at this stage? How much more would you have given me than her? What kind of man would I have been walking that road with you? It was a horrible decision to walkaway from you the way I did, I took advantage of your fragile state and became the very thing you feared the most.

I sometimes see you in public and watch how you avoid my line of sight in vain, I wonder what would you say having to see the broken mess I became. I remember your last words to me "she will be the reason you walkaway" and how true have those words been. When I think of all that I have endured I always remember it's because of the wrong I did to you, never getting the chance to say I'm sorry or even to show you how right you were. I guess the best thing I did was leave you, time has certainly been kinder to you than me. I still watch your progress and see your success, makes me smile to see that your potential is being unleashed and shining brightly for all the world to see. I know someday we gonna cross paths again, I only hope and pray that on that day I'm man enough to face you.

Generation tracks

This topic of parenting is becoming an issue, not too long ago I made some statements as per the video about the child being hit with a belt with a webcam.recording. Lemme be absolutely clear about this, to those of you who claim the child is being abused and traumatized be aware that it is this same lack of discipline in school that was the catalyst for the utter disregard for authority that persists in the education system today.

When consequences are removed i.e the rod, and the child is spoilt then the chaos to follow is what you the society complain about daily! Homicides, rapes, assault and robberies and even buggery are all degenerated forms of basic indiscipline. How does it happen? Like this; when children are aware that their actions have no consequence they will push the envelope as far as they can, consequences are borders designed to teach them that it is not safe for borders to be crossed. So let's say a child steals $2 from your wallet, then you decide untalk to the child, the child will realize that nothing more than words came of the act so they will repeat it and this time it may be $100. Of course there's also the idea of what the money will end up doing but later on for that. So now the $100 goes missing and you still have a one on one with the child and maybe do something mild like put the child in a corner to sit for the day, then what, you think that will now deter the child from stealing?? No it encourages the child to steal because nothing has happened you have not taken any form of corrective action. Now onto what the money may end up doing, a child with unearned anything is a hazard to the world, because they will place no value on these things and whether it be toys, money or your car keys expect that it will be treated with disdain because they did not earn it. That freedom pushes the child even further and that is when the real escalation occurs. Adolescents are addicted to sensations, the feelings and emotions are powerful and overwhelm them so they cannot comprehend the chaos they are heading into all because you the parent have not set any parameters via the lack of escalated discipline. Congratulations you have successfully given rise to the next generation of gangs and gang leaders as well as a new wave of crime instituted by unpunished immature radicals with the misguided invincibility of Superman!!

After all that was said some people will still talk about the child being traumatized. OK let's talk about trauma, indiscipline in children warps the mind and creates a peter pan illusion that the world is an open playground that has no rules but their own based on selfish and often misguided ideals that they define order and structure. This order and structure they anticipate as a reality is a mixture of multiple cross messages from different mediums and media and ultimately creates the chaos we see them displaying today. Do not be confused, open communication with children is important but unless there is an ultimate discipline to establish borders and boundaries all you are doing is fostering a new and even more dangerous age of mayhem, arrogance, ignorance and ultimate doom.

Is it you or the world?

Do good every time and good will follow, these are words that every church and motivating speech are filled with. Designed to activate a mental adrenaline rush that the more good we do the more we will receive. So how is it there are more than one billion people suffering from constant torment both physical and mental? What are these billion people doing wrong that these world livers and well wishers are doing right? Here's some reality:

1. Not all that glitters is gold: simply put do not be deceived by what your eyes see. The ancient art of misdirection perfected by Harry Houdini and passed on to generations after exist and flourish outside of the halls of magic. Many people who live in illusions of grandeur and pictures of positive living are steeped in torment and are prisoners of their own illusions. Most are not even close to being better than you but fight hard to fake being successful and at peace to project a false sense of achievement and contentment. When the lights come off and the stage comes down long tears of torment and suffering are shed behind closed doors where you won't see. Think of the person u always see in nice cars and fancy clothes but only shows up to a party in them, when you're not looking those people are struggling to find gas money for that nice car and have to constantly reimagine ideas to scavenge new clothing.

2. Dishonest fortune: the old people say never let yuh eye reach in d neighbour yard! This is so true because you do not know what someone else endured to acquire the mass material gains they have. Very many people do not know about hard work so instead they steal, plunder and terrorize others foe their treasures in hopes of mirroring the wealth they dream to own. Dirty money is a common factor of modern day life and those who are slaved to it sacrifice their bodies, their dignity, their honour and their legacy in the name of appearing to be well put together. Remember drug lords and assassins live in 10 bedroom prisons with bullet proof incarcerations known as luxury security in order to possess a fraction of peace that you enjoy lazily.

3. Know your limits: too often we are our own destroyers, charity and love for humanity is only as good as you're able to afford. How is it you want to earn $5000/month pay a rent of $2500/month and still lend a friend $10000?? Its impossible to stretch your hands that far and this is one of the key downfalls for "good people." There is no gain or additional karma to be gained by handing over yourself to debt and strife for the sake of others. Of course when you do these things and make yourself utterly useless people will leave you because you have rendered yourself worthless and a liability to the same people who are struggling with you!! Just the same way it is not right for you to associate with those less profitable than yourself so too shall you be seen as unprofitable when you spend all your life unable to provide for yourself. In law enforcement we have a saying " self preservation first" you cannot protect others if you cannot protect yourself and this is a fact. So who are you to try and save all of your friends but end up leaving yourself a dead corpse at the bottom of a ravine wandering the earth with vengeance on your mind for those who "abandoned you?"

4. Have balance: in anything that you do balance is key, from the types of associations to keep to the commitment levels issued to factors of your life, moderation is key. While its OK to socialize ever so often excess socialization is a drain on multiple factors of your life including home, work, revenue and productivity of self. Excess work reduces your ability to function around the world, all you will know and speak is work so what you basically become is an echo box for your employer!!

5. Understand self: I cannot express how important mastering your own being is to survival. Always be aware that just as you can spot flaws and loopholes in the personality of someone else so too can your weaknesses and strengths be seen. If however you cannot see the steel beam in yuh eye then you are forever doomed to being slaved to the whims and fancies of others who will now control you. When you are controlled you then call these people manipulators and deceivers but it is you who have left yourself unguarded by lacking the understanding of your experiences to see the limitations of your strengths and the depths of your weaknesses. That equates to being a sheep in the open savannah wondering why lions and cheetahs are hunting you. Yes the savannah plains have plenty of grass for you to grow big and strong but you have no armour and all that grass makes you full of meat, ideal for lions and cheetahs and dingos and leopards and vultures! How is it the world is being unfair to you who have exposed yourself??

The problem begins and ends with you, if you have no control over you then you cannot solve the problem.

Better than that people
R2

Then………Now………………Forever…………………

There are times I still think about you. Days go by when I wonder what life would be like had we walked a different road, had I not been so hasty, had you not gone with that friend, had I not gone with your friend. I wish at times we could have sorted things out like adults and not be at war with each other. It's such a shame we couldn't see past each other's flaws and helped build each other to become better people, maybe all now we would have been living our dreams and not nightmares. I see you on the move looking stressed and dejected, the world certainly has taken its toll on your youth making you seem older than you really are or is it that I haven't grown up like you have and still linger behind in maturity, or is it that now I see your true colours. Is it that I see the deceit and torment you are enduring because of his torturous ways? Is it that now you see the monster you created and the evil you willingly unleashed that has you bearing the world of guilt that has you trapped in a fast aging life of grief? Either which way I see the truth, I see the struggle to get free of hell, I see the need to dodge falling brimstone, I see the desire to escape the fire!

If I were you I would look stressed too, I would feel the weight of a solar system crushing my shoulders, I would feel the stress of an army hunting me like a dog. But no I don't feel this way and this is why you can't look at me, when you see me you see joy, you see strength, you dirty my name because you can't are your way even with him. How sad that after all the effort to discredit me I'm still going even further than you could have imagined! You tried your best to set me back but all you did was put me on a slingshot to freedom, freedom from your prison, freedom from your suffering, freedom from your eternal misery and disgust. So even though we could have been good, as of now I'm even better!!